Ok…I don’t usually put up wordy posts but every once and awhile a thought or “ah ha” moment strikes me and I think…..there must be others going through or thinking about the same thing and I need to share. So heres my latest thought process/ramble 🙂 So many times I see or hear the referance to how when we see things in other people that anger or bother us, that we are actually seeing a mirror….a reflection of those issues with-in ourselves. That has made me really think and question that. I have had things bother me in others that I honestly don’t see as a trait in myself….yet I knew there was some truth to this all. What was I missing? What I was not seeing clearly? Then I took an example and examined it. It seemed that recently I being presented with people that constantly judged others in a negative way….even people they loved & cared about. I found this bothered me and yet I didn’t see it as a strong trait in myself…yes I am guilty of judging & jumping to conclusions occasionally….I am human…but not to the extreme these others were. So I asked myself what else could it be bringing up? Then it dawned on me! I knew that if these people were coming to me and telling me the judgements they were making on others…then they must be going to others and telling them their judgements of me! Now we’re getting somewhere 🙂 So….as many of you out there have also experienced…..I was grew up with the “you’re not good enough”, “you never get it right” & “you are a dissapointment” so……I have carried this belief through out life and repeatedly lived it by drawing people that would remind me of this. After all……isn’t it easier to continue the habit than to realize & believe that my whole life I lived a lie? If I admitted that I WAS good enough…..then I would have to admit that I lived this lie willingly. So the fear of being judged was forcing me to look at why I would be judged. The fear would make me face the fact that I am, and always have been, GOOD ENOUGH! Now I realize that all the blocks of prosperity, abundance, love & joy have been placed by me and my fear of realizing the lie. If I was successful in all I do then I that would prove that I have lived a lie. Think about the people that are raised in abundance and always told that they deserve the best and they were always given the best with no regrets or guilt. These are the people that are successful with out even thinking about it! They were raised knowing they were good enough so they just expect the best and they live the best with out question or doubt. I don’t know about you…..but this girl is ready to accept that life has so far been a lie and I’m ready to live the truth…..I AM GOOD ENOUGH….and you know what? SO ARE YOU! If others judge me…and you….. for living & doing my best….then its on them & its their perception….it does not make it truth 🙂 Please don’t take this post as a rant about people judging….it was just an example of facing truth and how the mirror may not be reflecting our traits but of our fear of them. This made me realize my fear and how I kept repeating it so I wouldn’t have to face the truth. Now by seeing myself (yes this will still take some work….it didn’t take effect over night….lol) as good enough maybe I won’t find myself surrounded by people that judge others because I won’t need that lesson anymore…and I will welcome good things into my life….and lots of them!!!!
Love you all ❤